Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Betwixt and Between
Falling back through flickering memories in time, I can see us laying cheek to check and walking arm in arm. Harmonious steps lead us down the same path on the journey from I to us. What is betwixt us now? Neither here nor there. My security slips away as your freedom from what bonds you to us dissolves. Dissolves like baseless fabric of our days gone by. All that was once betwixt us now covered with a brume; mistier than eyes wide shut.
Once so secure in my footing, I was sure, steady. I walked bravely into the world, knowing you were steady at my side, had my back, and together moving forward. Now I know not where I can place my next step. Once aplomb, now uncertainty wracks me. Once whole, now broken into one. Between the me of we and the I now foisted upon me, I dare not move. Every step forward is one away from you. Further into vagueness we slip, neither wholly one thing or another. Still your direction is unmistakable.
On the edge of sleep, betwixt awake and asleep. Betwixt my heart and the rational, between me and you; here I lie alone by your side. I can feel you breathing; the air we share between us will soon dissipate and be lost among all the rest. We are undefined, you are undecided, and I am on the wrong side of right. Soon, it will be very soon, that all that is betwixt and between us will slip into that space between. Soon all that is us will be lost among all the rest.